“Is this rain or snow?” she asks. My windshield wipers aren’t quite keeping up enough to be able to see what is falling before it hits.
I kick them into high gear. “Rain, I think,” I tell her. “At least for now.”
The sun is setting somewhere behind us and we are headed back down the hill for the second time today.
“Does it only rain on bad days?”
I pause to think for a minute. “It rained on the day you were born.”
“Oh.” Optimism creeps into her voice.
And then without missing a beat, I say, “And it rained on the day my dad died. ”
Dammit. Why’d I say that? “And, it snowed on the day they took out your dad’s brain tumor.”
“It did?” She was only six then.
“So, if this is…”
“Yep, if this is, then this–” I nod to the view in front of us, “this is a good sign.” I look out past the rain-splashed windshield and see that is true: “And I don’t think any of those days had a rainbow.”
“Oh.” She is nearly twelve now.
I feel the sunshine warm the knuckles of my left hand through the glass beside me. I relax my grip on the wheel just a little. “The sun is trying.” She looks back over her shoulder and we both take a deep breath.
“Do you think you know when you’re in a rainbow?” she asks.
“I don’t know. Could we be in one right now?”
“Hmm,” she thinks about it, staring out the window.
We saw one more rainbow on our way to the ER last night. One for the clear CAT scan results that were waiting when we arrived. And one for the clear MRI that came after the sky had fallen dark and the rain had turned to snow.
“So, if this isn’t…”
“I know. If this isn’t, then I don’t know.”
I am participating in the 11th annual Slice of Life Story Challenge (#SOLSC18) hosted by Two Writing Teachers. We write each day (except–for me–for yesterday) in March as part of an international writing community. I appreciate any comments, especially those that
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- coach into those that don’t.
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